THE NON-ANGELIC LIFE

. 🤣🤣🤣 . Specially dedicated to all MAMARAZZIs..especially those MUSLIM aunties aka kepochi who are also unqualified USTAZAH online.. . STOP snooping into others' life.. #AsalKEPOnah . STOP preaching.. #TakyahEksyenSuciSopanSantunWarakBagai . Do something worthwhile i.e. recite the Quran/Bible/whatever religious book available or feed the needy people.. . Get a life.. . Take care of your own life and family.. . Fly a kite.. . Be nice to each other.. . Happy a nice sunday! 😁 . #PilihanAnggunJelitawan  #JANGANkepoNah  #Mamarazzi_MakcikKepo ..👀..👀..👀.. #AgnosticismAsPartOfLife  #LiberalAgnosticPeaceOfMind  #LiberalAgnosticHappyGoLucky ✌️

. Nowadays I have this quote in mind - "It is better to die rather than taking care of aging parents!"..seriously I am burning out just staying at home & have to do all this caregiving of my aging parents. . I am always thinking of telling my other siblings to sell this current house & let my aging parents live with one of them. The money from the sales of flat goes to the person who is willing to take in & care for my aging parents. I will not take a single cents. About me, it is OK as I can live elsewhere..I just need all to LEAVE ME ALONE after the house is sold! . Indeed I am at in between giving up and how much more I can take this caregiving of my aging parents who drove me up the wall..driving me nuts..irritating me with their behaviours..I seriously stressed with this kind of life..Many times I wonder what I did SO WRONG to deserve this kind of miserable life.. . This is NOT the life I dreamt of since young..even in my dream, not this kinda lif...

. Yesterday my eldest sister received the arrival of her first grandchild - a grandson! Making my eldest sister a SASSY GRANDMA..🤣🤣🤣.."TOK MA" (in Malay) as she wants to be called. . How time flies! The first nephew I carried when he was a baby is already grown up..has become a father now. Eventhough I am not close to this nephew, I am just glad he has found his own happiness and now has a bundle of joy - the SON! . How about me? What I want to be called?🤔🤔🤔..🤣🤣🤣As always, I just want to be remembered as the liberal, outgoing, childish, sexy and daring Wati! Now I am thinking of getting my hair coloured soon..Might I get any grandchildren or great grandchildren, I am still who I am..I try my best not to be a grumpy old folk just bcoz I am indirectly a "GRANDMOTHER" or "GREAT GRANDMOTHER". . Anyway, CONGRATULATION to my eldest sister's family! May everything goes well as always..May more bundle of joys to come in the fu...

. Another hp case.. . A DREAM IN MY PAST - FERRARI! . While other women searching high and low for a husband to show off to the world that they are worthy because they are MARRIED, I was searching high and low for ways to find the wealth to buy a FERRARI..bcoz having a FERRARI makes me felt WORTHY! . Once a Regional Director for Vessel Engineers asked me,"What's your dream car? Don't be shy. Who knows I can buy it and make your dream comes true!".. . (Take Note: I was weighing 50kg at that time..Skinny Skeleton).. . I replied,"You can't afford it! Nevermind! Next question!".. . Well, all men are EGOISTIC so, he thought I was challenging him. "Just tell me!", he demanded.🙄🙄🙄 . I replied,"Ferrari Spyder in red..worth at least USD800,000 without COE..without monthly maintenance..without road tax and insurance..without petrol..So, how? Are you going to buy it for me now?"..😡😡😡 . He stopped the car aside and said,"I ...

. I just do not know why my mom cannot be happy when I jokingly said that I only want to be rich, NOT married..She continues criticising me by saying that I am like my paternal side who always going after others' wealth just to be rich.. . WHAT'S MY MOM'S PROBLEM?! . As I sat at a corner of the living room, I sighed..Since young, Im always being criticised by my own mother..If others treated me bad and I told her, all she said,"You DESERVED to be treated that way..Just look at you with your dark skin and ugly face..How do you expect others to treat you..like princess?!"..Indeed I was sad, disappointed with her words but what can I do and say more as a kid, right? . Today she did it again. Why she cannot be happy for me? Haiiiizzz..That's why I do not wish to stay here in this house any longer..I really curse the cause of this CoVid-19..if not because of this virus, I would have a new job by now..indeed less existing in the house..as more time I wil...

. If given a choice, I would rather stay at home..baking..painting..cooking..go shopping etc..while the monies been deposited into my bank account for doing nothing to anyone named "BIG BOSS"..as I, myself is the BIG BOSS..😂😂😂..but do I have such privilege? The answer is NO! It is because my mom wants to see me working for the monies..NOT shake legs and get the monies like a BIG BOSS..🤣🤣🤣 . This is what I always get as a reply when I am on the jobhunt.."Are you sure you can handle it? It is a tough job!"..bla bla bla..Boring! . Then people around would say to me,"Stay strong and be patient".. That's clíse. I am not strong BUT I always try my best to be strong..Again, what other choices I have, right? I have to face the ordeal of being unemployed..all by myself..on my own..all alone..😡😡😡😁😁😁 . I do not want to be RUDE but if I respond to this kind of email, it will be a sarcastic one from me..so, I just read and delete it! ...

. Born to a mother originated from Indonesia & an Arabian father born in Singapore. I was exposed more to Indonesian cultures rather than Arabian cultures while growing up. I can't speak Arabic but I can speak a bit of Bahasa Indonesia.. . Yes! I do not look like an Arabian or an Indonesian..I have such an undefined Asian look..🤪🤪🤪At overseas no one can guess I look like which Asian except Filipino..I still smile..I am honoured..eventhough I am not a Filipino but Indonesian by my mom's side..well, as long as I still look like a human, I am fine with whatever Asian look I have..Looks can be deceiving anyway!😁😁😁 . Today, my mother complained that we forgotten to hang the Singapore flag on 9 August 2020..I was busy, it slipped out of my mind..I teased her that she can hang Indonesia flag as today is Indonesia's 75th Independence Day..She smiled faintly before she started telling me how she missed her hometown in Indonesia..🤦🤦🤦Here we go again..the emot...

Just searching around for things I need to do once my finance is stable..found this online..indeed very useful.. Indeed I need my change of religious faith to be legalised..due to the deduction on monthly salary..I will definitely email to MUIS in the future to inform that I have renounced my religious..as I no longer living as a Muslim..no longer practising Islam..since 1st May 2020.. Now I am focusing on getting a new job..A step at a time..

No one can understand what I am going thru'..not until they going thru' similar situation as mine. People would always labelled someone like me as ungrateful each time I was asked to share my problem in life..which if no one asking, I would not disclose..My problem in life is concerning my father..as years gone by, I found myself hating his attitudes and ego alot..Always thinking about himself..self-centered old fella who acts really despiced me. Now and then when I have had enough of him, I would cursed him,"You are USELESS..WORTHLESS kind of human being. You are better off being dead rather than live just to burden me..I have never hate any men - not even my exes like how I hate you..How I wish you are not my father! Your existence on earth pissed me off!".. Yes! I sounded mean..but that's my TRUE feelings and thoughts of a man known as my biological father. I cannot deny these feelings. I cannot lie about it..I dislike pretending to love someone whe...

. I should have arrived in Melbourne, Australia on 29th July 2020..for my 1st trip in 2020..as my escape from having to celebrate the Eid Ul Adha and be existed during Singapore's National Day.. . However due to the arrival of CoVid-19 to Singapore, my planned trip was cancelled. I have resigned from my job before the Circuit Breaker took place.. . I am more sad that the trip was cancelled..NOT sad about the job I lost! Not saying that I can have new job easily but bcoz resigning was my plan in 2019, if not bcoz of Ms Jay persuading me to stay! As Ms Jay no longer around in 2020, there's nothing holding me back! Sayonara! . 9 August 2020..Here I am at earliest morning..still stuck in Singapore..Jobless..Not yet NEW NORMAL..still in Phase Two, I shall assumed. Yeah! The govt did gave me lots of money..but still NO FREEDOM to travel overseas..This CoVid-19 really pissed me off to the core..as I and the rest of the world are being masked prisoners in our own cou...

. Last month I told my SD about this breast enlargement serum..of coz he laughed🙄🙄🙄but I was serious. He commented,"For what you buy all that..You don't need it.."..Haiiiizzz..I was just asking for his MALE OPINION and of coz, asking him to pay for it..He still laughed when I met him and brought this matter up.. . Told him,"If you not going to sponsor my breast enlargement serum, I will seek other sponsorship!"😡😡😡 which of coz he stopped laughing and replied,"Don't start your rendeavour again, Murni..ENOUGH is ENOUGH. Seriously, you do not need that serum or similar treatment..Think about something else..facial mask..lingerie..I will pay for it! Just look thru' your photo album..you will know what I am saying is true".. . Then I found this picture..😳😳😳..😁😁😁...😂😂😂..I just need a tight low-cut dress and push-up bra..Indeed men know best when comes to women's breast issues..🤣🤣🤣

. After high school I wanted to join Lasalle..to study arts..painting..but during my time, arts-painting was NOT a trend..not many painters becomes MULTI-MILLIONAIRE..not much moral supports available in my country..it is either I did not know where to find help or there's none! Directly, not many parents into letting their children do arts..That's why my mom jumped upon my intention to do arts..My mom commented,"How are you going to feed yourself? Eat the paintings? Drink the paint?"..😳😳😳🙄🙄🙄🤣🤣🤣..My mom forbids me to go to art stream..I did not enter Lasalle at last. . After my Pre-University, I secretly enrolled to Civil Structural & Architectural Design course aka Building Drafting..My parents sighed while I stayed calm as if nothing happened..I paid my expenses..my god-brother paid for my drawing pens..I worked part-time in a hotel answering telephone..When my SD returned, he foot all bills..my dad did not even wi...

. I GIVE UP! . These old folks at home are TOO STUBBORN to listen..so, let it be! I no longer give a damn about them..They can just do what they want.😣😣😣 . A huge mug of sweet milk coffee this morning..🤦🤦🤦 . "What my HUGE SIN to deserve this kinda thingy?"..😭😭😭 . Told my mom,"He (my father) can ONLY drink plain water..NO OTHER DRINKS..If this is the way you want it to be for him, I shall comment no further. Just do what you both want to do..Just eat & drink what you both want to eat & drink. If he ever admit to hospital again, you tell everything to my lil sistee..bcoz you are the one who KEEP ON making sweet drinks for him. I GIVE UP on you both, STUBBORN old folks!"😠😠😠🤬🤬🤬 . This is NOT the life I dreamt of, all these years..BUT I have to live it..face these ordeal by myself..As an agnostic, I shall only blame humans for my sufferings..in this case, my aging old parents are causing the pains. I just hope I can calm dow...

I have had enough getting scoldings from others for all the things I did not do..Like because of my father's bad eating-drinking habit, I was bashed by my lil sister..I HAVE HAD ENOUGH! If at workplace, I would simply keep quiet..just move along..search other job opportunity quietly..because I was paid to be quiet when scolded for the mistakes of others. At home, what do I gained..HEARTPAIN?! Oh pleeeeease! This is not the kind of life I dreamt of..to face grumpy stubborn aging parents who made my life upside-down..what kind of huge sin I have made in the past to deserve this kind of life?..LIFE SUCKS! So this morning I gave my piece of mind. I said,"If you are too stubborn, refusing to follow what my lil sister said about drinking ONLY plain water, by all means, just do what you want. And if due to your own doing, you landed in a hospital again, kindly please tell the doctors and nurses there that you are NOT to be discharge alive. You are to be dead corpse upon discharge fro...

. While Eid visiting, my lil sister was furious knowing that our father is NOT drinking plain water but instead sweet dark coffee on daily basis. Informing that the doctor had advised that due to our father's medical case in 2015 where he was hospitalised due to him could not urinate and pass motion..caused by too many sweets in his blood streams..FACT: He ate 15 bxs (500g/bx) of Arabian dates within 1 mth..his sweet tooth's habit! . Frankly speaking, I was unaware of such thing as my mother did not even mentioned anything that sort. Haiiiiiizzzz..It was always my mother who made the sweet dark coffee. Now I have to put a STOP on this drinking sweet dark coffee's habit! . Firstly after my lil sister gone home, I washed the coffee canister and put back in the cabinet. NO MORE SWEET DARK COFFEE for the old folks at home..Relieved! . Told my mother what my lil sister said abt my father. My mother sarcasticly commented,"So, I no need to do anything in this house..easy life...

(Idea to create this came to my mind while washing dishes) It is August again. Usually in August I would be flying off to my vacation destination BUT not this August 2020 where CoVid-19 still exist everywhere all parts of the world. Really tragic. The starter of this pandemic should own up, clear the mess and be fined severely. 🖕🖕🖕🖕 As Singapore still NOT moving out of Phase Two of the Pandemic, there's nowhere at overseas I can fly too..indeed it is DAMN BORING to be stuck in this kind of living situation. Just thinking about this driving me NUTS! However there's a blessing behind this ordeal..Many funds I have received..especially now I am UNEMPLOYED! Ahakz! Yes! Many people had commented negatively towards me but heck care! They are not in my shoes..they won't know what it feels like..So, why bother, right? Eversince my ex-fiance left me, I no longer bother about what others have to say. Thru' my ex-fiance, I learnt that people can always comm...