HUMANS TO BE BLAME..NOT GOD!

I GIVE UP!
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These old folks at home are TOO STUBBORN to listen..so, let it be! I no longer give a damn about them..They can just do what they want.😣😣😣
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A huge mug of sweet milk coffee this morning..🤦🤦🤦
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"What my HUGE SIN to deserve this kinda thingy?"..😭😭😭
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Told my mom,"He (my father) can ONLY drink plain water..NO OTHER DRINKS..If this is the way you want it to be for him, I shall comment no further. Just do what you both want to do..Just eat & drink what you both want to eat & drink. If he ever admit to hospital again, you tell everything to my lil sistee..bcoz you are the one who KEEP ON making sweet drinks for him. I GIVE UP on you both, STUBBORN old folks!"😠😠😠🤬🤬🤬
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This is NOT the life I dreamt of, all these years..BUT I have to live it..face these ordeal by myself..As an agnostic, I shall only blame humans for my sufferings..in this case, my aging old parents are causing the pains. I just hope I can calm down..chill..persevere..rather than "murder" them both..bcoz indeed they are DAMN TOO MUCH to endure!😤😤😤
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#LifeAsACaregiver 
#NotEasyFacingOldFolks 
#StrugglingNotToMurderThem
#MyHandsAreTrembling
#CalmingDownMyNerves
#NoGODtoBeBlame
#HumansAreToBeBlame
#AgnosticismAsPartOfLife 
#LiberalAgnosticChallenges
#LiberalAgnosticCalmingDown
#LiberalAgnosticChillOut

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