MY GREATEST DREAM


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Another hp case..
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A DREAM IN MY PAST - FERRARI!
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While other women searching high and low for a husband to show off to the world that they are worthy because they are MARRIED, I was searching high and low for ways to find the wealth to buy a FERRARI..bcoz having a FERRARI makes me felt WORTHY!
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Once a Regional Director for Vessel Engineers asked me,"What's your dream car? Don't be shy. Who knows I can buy it and make your dream comes true!"..
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(Take Note: I was weighing 50kg at that time..Skinny Skeleton)..
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I replied,"You can't afford it! Nevermind! Next question!"..
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Well, all men are EGOISTIC so, he thought I was challenging him. "Just tell me!", he demanded.🙄🙄🙄
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I replied,"Ferrari Spyder in red..worth at least USD800,000 without COE..without monthly maintenance..without road tax and insurance..without petrol..So, how? Are you going to buy it for me now?"..😡😡😡
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He stopped the car aside and said,"I never expected you as a woman has high taste when comes to cars! Amazing! Yes! Can't afford it! Lets negotiate..how about BMW?"..
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I responded,"Sorry! I don't lower any price for such a gem!"..😁😁😁
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When I was 15 years old, I did told my parents that once I have a car, I do not need a husband. My mom gave me a deadly stare which I stared back!😳
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YES! In the past, I felt that I am only WORTHY if I study hard, get a degree, get a high salaried job and drive a FERRARI..but nowadays, I have longed let go of my great dreams..😔😔😔
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On the day I thrashed the poster of Ferrari Spyder off my bedroom's wall, Harlem asked me why..I replied,"I no longer have great dream..my world has ended..I am just a HUGE LOSER!"..of coz he hugged me and said,"You are not a loser..You are my champion always!"..
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Nowadays as I walked on earth, YES! I am pretending to be worthy..good at everything..a survivor..strong-willed..but only God knows the truth..I am dead..I am a zombie..My great dreams which motivated me in the past are GONE now..But still, I will smile and laugh aloud till my last breath..eventhough I am gaining nothing greatest in life anymore and aiming nothing but peace of mind..Cheerz!🥂🥂🥂
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