HOMELESS IN COUNTRY OF BIRTH

It is sad..terrible feelings knowing that the locals - Singapore-born  are "homeless" aka "rough sleepers'..
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I used to imagine living really "homeless" in my country of birth..Sadly disappointing..I was born here in Singapore but why am I "homeless"..? My frequent question those days..
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4 times applied for house..not 10 rooms mansion..just miserable 2-room flat, still none for me..the 3rd time my application was  rejected, I was caught arguing with a housing officer who indirectly told me that the area I chose prioritised only for married couple with children..even give example of 11 humans living in a 2-room flat (only 1 bedroom, 1 toilet)..That example escalated more my anger..I told her what 11 humans doing in such a tiny house..Your organisation should lower the price and let this group get a bigger house..at least 3-room flat..Squeezing in a small area..not healthy..that's over-occupied..Just let the single NOT DAMN RICH living alone people like me have the 2-room flat..Your housing plan FAILED severely! She calmly told me to apply again which I did..until 4th time..All got rejected!..
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Then 2021's most terrible incident happened, I forwarded all documents to the MP..I'm really at the edge of YES! Homeless..Rough sleeping at Sembawang Park or Seletar Dam or the park behind Darul Makmur Mosque..YES! ME, the Singapore-born nearly "HOMELESS"..That's how bad my situation was back then..painful just remembering it..Plus betrayal by my beloved parents..EXPLOSIVELY NOT A GREAT FEELING..Still, ALHAMDULILLAH..NIKMAT YANG MANA HARUS AKU DUSTAI, YA ALLAH?! I got a house..when I did my selection, I nearly cried out loud in front of the housing officer "Yati"..My tears only dropped on my way home..😭😭😭
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After 4 years of waiting, I moved into my own house at the end of May 2025..with no job in hand..no money to hire a mover..my brothers  helped a bit..I "opened" the new house on my own as NO male figure is willing to help me! Then, I don't know how to turn on the water valve..asked around, no one helping..then washer gonna be delivered..I did it myself! The delivery guy saw me with my huge spanar asked,"What you going to do with that huge spanar, sister?"..I said that I just turned on the water valve for the washer..😳😳😳..Until right now there is still no kitchen sink..talk about it next year..in the meantime, wash in the bathroom..Chill..No stove which I just use the camping mini stove..but my "sahabat" bought me an oven😭😭😭..Using travel kettle until now but another "sahabat" gave me coffee-maker 😭😭😭..Many of my belongings are still at my parents' house..How chaotic my life as an unmarried Singaporean..then some BOZO commented,"Life would be easier if you have a husband!"..Fuckers, don't start testing my patience..Having a husband is the same if he is UNEMPLOYED, NO MONEY, NOT HELPING WITH THE WATER VALVE, NO THINKING OF GIVING ME A PROPER KITCHEN..worse, none of my brothers would help because married sister is NO LONGER her brother's responsibility..WORSE KINDA OF LIFE..#KorgRase Don't anyhow talk to my face..I might spit your bloody face!
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A closest friend of mine commented,"ALLAH always helped you at last minute because you are a good daughter, Murni..Nearly my friend is going to live in a tent by the beach"..🙄🙄🙄Tak kelakar tau..Senyum ajelah! Aku tgh sabar tau!🤣🤣🤣..iyalah tu!
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"Homeless" Singapore-born is a major issue in Singapore right now besides irrational  employment practices..I hope it will be solved soon..I have gone thru' the tough life..nearly homeless..it was  suffocating..Also, it is really painful like salt added to the wound when seeing many  non-Singapore-born or new Singapore citizens or Singapore PR can easily buy the houses instead..🤦🏽🤦🏽🤦🏽..
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If I only have the means of huge monetary fund-saving, I myself personally would run away from Singapore during those chaotic tough moments..indeed so much of "This is my Home, Truly"..sure or not..like real ehk..knn😂😂😂


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