ADDED BUT UNFOLLOW

🗣️ :
Ko tak nampak updates aku kah?
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Aku :
Aku tak nampak pasal aku tak "follow"..Aku added orang yang aku rasa OK, tak judgmental! Tapi, aku tak "follow"..
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🗣️ :
Kenapa?
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Aku :
Pasal aku takmo tengok kehidupan orang lain, lepas tu aku mula compared dengan kehidupan aku. Aku takmo rasa hidup aku termasuk diri aku nie MEMANG TAK GUNA jadi manusia..PALING GAGAL di dalam dunia ini..Nanti takde sedetik pon aku nie TAK MENYALAHKAN ALLAH kerana memberi hidup aku TAK SEPERTI orang lain..Aku pilih untuk tak follow so that aku tak bertambah overthinking di dalam pertikaikan semua pemberian ALLAH pada aku..yang selalu sekerapnya ALLAH beri jauh daripada apa yang aku harapkan dan aku tak mampu buat apa selain mengeluh! Aku tahu hidup aku dah hancur! Hidup aku dah takde gunanya untuk diteruskan..Aku aware about all that..namun aku takmo tambah pengetahuan untuk dengan melihat hidup orang lain dan mula buat perbandingan. It is OK that my life is destroyed..let it be! It is FINE that I am a great failure and biggest loser..let it be! I just pretend my life is great, fantastic, amazing and just be happy pretending to be one..Itu pasal aku tak tahu what's going on in others' lives until they told me themselves..I am preserving my SANITY..Aku nak kekalkan kewarasan aku walaupon semasa hidup aku sedang tak baik..
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🗣️ :
Aku tak sangka kau rasa camtu..pasal aku tengok kau cam tak terjejas dengan apa-apa..muka kau tenang je walaupon 24 jam "Bitch Rest Face"..
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Aku :
Aku kena tenangkan diri aku supaya tak nampakkan kacau-bilau di dalam diri aku. Tu pon ada masa tertentu jugak orang di sekeliling aku suruh aku "Chill".."Calm down"..tu muka aku BRF tau..maybe they are sensing  the turbulence inside me..🤣🤣🤣..Anyway, it is better not to know rather than hati aku sakit melihat apa yang aku tak dapat..rasa terasa lagi terkilan sakan bila ALLAH tak kasi yang sama pada aku!
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#iAddedFriendButUnfollow
#HateExtraOverthinking


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