TEST FROM GOD - MY FAMILY PART 1

Had an afternoon nap..maybe due to the vaccine now taking action..then I woke up to this..😳😳😳..a huge pot of porridge - my mom cooked..🤦🤦🤦 I just forgotten to pull out the switch plug to the stove..then this happens! Who is going to eat this huge pot of porridge? I still have a plate of leftover rice in the rice cooker to finish up at dinner time later with last night curry prawn...😤😤😤..
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I asked her,"Are you try to kill me or what?! You really need me to be dead like my other sibling are wishing, is it?!"..She said she can finish it all up..🤦🤦🤦..how to finish this big pot when she only eats 2-3 tablespoons of rice at a mealtime..for sure this porridge will be thrown away like those 5 times thrown away rice cooked by her during weekdays..🤦🤦🤦..
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Why must God test me with this kind of parents who has long life but became burdens to me??? She is really driving me to my early death, not the existing virus..🤬🤬🤬😡😡😡...Dah pesan jangan buat apa-apa banyak kali..tetap buat sesuatu untuk sakitkan hati aku..Dah kenapa dengan semua orang dalam famili aku..🖕🖕🖕While other people's parents easily passed away aka died when alive they were independent - TAK MENYUSAHKAN ANAK-ANAK, why are my parents still alive but become huge burden to me? WHY?!😭😭😭
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I really have had enough of this kind of parental issues..This is not the life I have dreamt all my life..Not this! I need to do something..Need to think fast!🤔🤔🤔
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