READ UP ON A "SHARIFAH"

With recent read up abt someone advising & reminding another person with "Sharifah" in front of her name abt the noble roots of the Arab clan really interest me..
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I am not sure abt those who have "Siti" or "Sheikha" in front of their name but born with "Sharifah" in front of my name has not been easy for me..
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Each time people know my full name,..

First question - "You are born on Friday, that's why your name is "Sharifah", right?"..

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Hmmm what my name got to do with the day I born..how many "Sharifah" out there born on other days of the week..I always replied,"Not really..bcoz my first chosen name was "Latifah" but it does not suit me as I was not born to be soft-spoken, soft-hearted & lady-like..so they changed to "Sharifah" bcoz the wise man said I am a tough cookie, strong-willed, stubborn, honest & temperamental..plus my paternal descendent originated from Saudi Arabian desert.."Murni" was added to bring my strong soul nailed down to earth..that's what my maternal granny & my mom told me..I cannot be provoke as I will be outrageously furious..My partner must be opposite me, only then the relationship can works..so both my granny & my mom have expected my outrageous temper since birth..I even look like a stuck-up bcoz my arrogance due to I am a "Sharifah" clearly shown to those who do not know me..I don't like to smile & talk to strangers unnecessarily. I am not girl-next-door kinda person. I am different when with those I know..Even my beau knows how I don't smile just to anyone..the way I look at others as if they are my slave also he knows..just by calling me "Sharifah"..I am too self-obssessed with myself actually..🤣🤣🤣
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Second question always - "You look neither as an Arab or an Indonesian"..

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C'mmon, ladies! I am 50% Arab, 50% Indonesian..how to expect me to look fully like those races..Gimme a break..However surprisingly in Saudi, shop-owner always mistaken me to be the locals..maybe the aura of being an Arab is there? Who knows, right? So, I am an Arab in Saudi..An Indonesian in Batam..hhhmmmm..An Italian in Italy?😝😝😝✌️✌️✌️
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Third question - "Do you as an Arab can mix around with people from outside Arab descendent? I heard an Arab only welcomes those of the same clan.."..

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I think I broke that rule..🤣🤣🤣..I mix with people from all walks of life..Yes! Once an Arab guy I was going out with did reminded me of such rule but I told him off bcoz to me, I mix with all humans who don't mind mixing with me..C'mmon, all humans came from one prophet's descendent..Prophet Adam..Adam was the first human whom God created, right? So, why there's a biase in mixing with other humans..all are the same, right? Thereafter, that Arab guy no longer in contact with me which of coz I don't mind at all..I was taught all humans are the same..What differs are their deeds! There are GOOD & BAD people in this world..Choose wisely!
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Fourth question - "You don't look like an Arab..no sharp nose..no almond shaped eyes..Don't you feel ashamed to claim as an Arab? Another thing - you are too huge & too dark skin to claim as an Indonesian..Doesn't it make you embarrassed to claim as one?"..

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Why asked such questions? I might not have all those perfections but those ethnicities are mine & I just cannot deny my descendent just like that & claim to be from other ethnicity, right? C'mmon..Don't insult me in that manner as I do not choose to be Arab-Indonesia-Singaporean..All God's will that I have to carry this "Sharifah" for the rest of my life..I did several times requested "Sharifah" to be deleted but my parents did not allowed it..maybe there's a reason behind it..so, don't accused me of being someone I am not supposed to be..Chill aaah..
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So etc etc .. many other questions thrown to me..just bcoz "Sharifah" is the first name of mine..What it means? "Sharifah" = The Noble One .. yeah! I know that I am NOT noble at all but what can I say..I was born to be NOBLE..🤣🤣🤣🤣
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So the read up advised that "Sharifah" to cover up..tutup aurat..her openness indeed saddened for sure her ancestors..🙏🙏🙏May God bless her soul as she calmly responded by saying - Please do pray for me to gain HIDAYAH & ISTIQOMAH..
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Luckily I am not famous public figure..if not, what kind of advice a person will give the "Sharifah" me who converted from Islam to Agnostic..Indeed my ancestors will be crying blood in their graves? Only God knows..To my ancestors - Please forgive me..I just cannot continue lying to be happily living as a Muslim which I doubt Islamic rules, regulations & teaching all my life..I know I have disappointed all..I am sorry..😭😭😭..I just need to be real to myself..No more lying to myself!✌️✌️✌️Peace, No war!

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