NO MORE!

 

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Yesterday my mom was criticising what I wore to workplace..Jeans, t-shirt and boots..my usual rainy day attire..What's wrong with that?
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To me, it is a norm to have her criticising me day-in day-out..as she has been criticising me since I was a kid..When I was a kid, she would decides what I can wear and what I cannot wear based on her own typical Asian Muslim's body/size measurements..but after I reached 21, she has been struggling to do the same bcoz I started to tell her off..off my back..step back..
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Yesterday I told her,"No matter what you say..no matter what you comment..no matter what your critics and body-shaming will be..I shall NOT listen to you..bcoz to you - I WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH TO YOU FOREVER AND FOR REAL, not like my lil sister whom you are damn proud of..so, your words and statements will only enter my left ear and exit my right ear..vice-versa..I heard you but I am not listening to you anymore..I will not apologising to you because you intend to hurt my feelings today and those times in the past and will be in the future..For your info. I no longer care what your intention is..Now, I am going to work. You, behave..Don't do anything that will trigger my greatest anger..bcoz you are NOT an angel, you are only my parent and will sinned too if you hurt your children like you and daddy keep doing on me..Be good now..Don't say I did not warn you, ok! Bye!"..
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She was silent..until I closed the front door!
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I do not need toxic people in my life..even if they are my parents..I grew up with toxic people around me..I am SICK and TIRED..I HAVE HAD ENOUGH!
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I know that I am FAT..no need for any human to remind me that..bcoz I am HAPPY to be FAT and healthy..what's your problem? Not liking the fat me..buzz off! I don't like judgemental people too
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I know that I am UNMARRIED, NOT wealthy and UNSUCCESSFUL..no need for any human to compare me with my siblings..I am proud of WHO I AM right now..I am SUCCESSFUL in my own way..I might NOT have a husband but I have a BOYFRIEND who acts like a husband..alaaaaah so sweeeeet🙄🙄🙄🥰🥰🥰..I have his male attentions and love too is more than enough..no need to sign contract..As long as I have a job, I am wealthy as I paid my own bills..
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I dislike when people say the DOs and DON'Ts in behaving, choosing clothes etc only apply to FAT and BIG people..WTF! FAT and BIG people have no feelings? no rights?..Gosh! Don't be too crazy CONTROLLING others! #GilaKuasa ..I have stopped listening to such DOs and DON'Ts..I follow what I feel like wearing..behaving..reacting..I don't need anyone's approvals!😤😤😤

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