MONTH TO FOCUS ON DEPRESSION


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Based on living experience, DEPRESSION is for REAL..NOT another joke of the decade..NOT something to criticise or condemn..Someone having DEPRESSION is NOT another spoilt bratz..DEPRESSION is NOT to be taken lightly..
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DEPRESSION hits me on the day I breakup with that British fella..In view of strangers, I was just another DRAMA QUEEN plus SPOILT BRATZ who couldn't get over a breakup..🙄🙄🙄
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Firstly when I knew this British, my intention was like 'Fuuuuhhh! AT LAST there's someone with whom I can get married with'..all I need is a CLOSURE to all those people who NON-STOP asking me 'When are you getting married like all of us?'..NON-STOP criticising me as 'UNWANTED, REJECTED human being whom NO ONE can loves and marry with'..
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Then when breakup happened, I felt like soooo USELESS, HOPELESS, NOT GOOD ENOUGH, NOT WORTHY..blah..blah..blah..WORST when I saw those with DISABILITIES are seen happily married and with many children..I was asking myself then,'Oh Lord, for heaven's sake..WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? WHY NO MAN WANTS TO LOVE AND MARRY ME?'..I felt HUMILIATED..INSULTED..SHORT..as it seemed like no one wants me! I really felt TOTALLY NO SELF-ESTEEM at all back then!
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Damn! I was really down back then..at age 33, I felt being OUTCASTED by the world..It took me years to overcome DEPRESSION eventhough now and then I still do think of hanging myself..especially when I feel that I have NOTHING great in life! That's why my SD took me out for dinner or one day outing..bcoz he hates when I am SUICIDAL!
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At age 40, I announced my firm decision to stay unmarried. Seriously, anything NEGATIVE about being unmarried which people always thrown towards me NO LONGER affect me (only affect my mom🤦🤦🤦)..People can say anything..criticise the fact I am a living REAL SPINSTER..but I will just smile..if my mood not good, I will be sarcastic and replied,"Thank me alot for not aftering your spouse..just bcoz I need to get married like what you are urging me to follow! If not, I am your rival, wifey!"..of coz thereafter, the Big BIATCH will hates me..Remember, I don't look like a bitch, I am the REAL BIG BITCH! Don't mess around with me, kiddos!🤣🤣🤣
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In addition, it is sad that many people just ignore its existence in a person..just labelling the person with depression as attention-seeker..when actually this person just needs someone to hear him/her out and support to overcome this whole situation..😔😔😔..Give it some thought, folks! ❤️❤️❤️

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