LET IT GOOOOO!!!

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YESTERDAY..EVENING..
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I was screaming out loud when my dad told me to buy him Straits Times bcoz he wants to find a job..WHAT?! A JOB?! AT HIS AGE?! 🤦🤦🤦
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All those working years my dad did NOTHING great at his workplace..He was always taking MCs..He was not a co-operative team mate..He was inconsiderate and always reluctant to assist his co-worker..He bullied his colleagues often..All that NOT ENOUGH, is it?!😤😤😤
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Former colleagues complaining about all my dad's unacceptable actions to me and my mom..I just faced it with straight face..no smile..While my mom continue smiling and laughing just to hide her true emotion of sadness in public. How embarass it is to have strangers approaching us just to give negative comments about him. Doesn't he feel WHAT my mom and me feel?!
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I just don't know why I am placed in this pathetic domestic situation..where I have to deal with my parents' issues..All thanks to GOD for giving me such a fate..
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This is NOT the kind of life I dreamt of..after accepting the FATE..that I am one of those HOMELESS Singaporean and one of those UNMARRIED individuals in this world..If these are what GOD wrote to be my lifestory, I ACCEPT IT! However, don't..just don't add any additional burdens to me like my dad's BLOODY SHITS of wanting to go to work when all he will be doing is bullying others at workplace..😠😠😠🤬🤬🤬..
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That's why I don't have any facial expression whenever anyone at workplace BULLIED me..Both my sisters complained to my mom and cried in my mom's arms when their colleagues bullied them..Me?..I just sighed..If I have had enough of people bullying me, I just RESIGN..that's me!
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No one gonna pity me if I cry due to colleagues bullying me. I have longed accepted this kinda bad working scenario bcoz my dad bullied his colleagues first! Karma exist and I have to pay his debts! Just my rotten luck to have him in the family!🙄🙄🙄
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Anyway as I am going to start work again, I am letting go all my domestic burdens..Leaving all in GOD's will..Just have faith that everything will be BETTER! 🙏🙏🙏
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