EXPLODED MANY TIMES

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My current life is not as chaotic as in the past..where I clubbed all weekends..meeting my closest friends almost every day after work..Nowadays my life is more simple..I prefer to stay indoor most of the times..I love the moments of silence..At workplace, I just come in early, do my work, stay up for an hour or two and go home by bus..The busride is where I reflects on what had happened on daily basis at workplace..in life..Nowadays I seldom 'take to heart' what bad things happened at workplace as I have learnt that workplace is where I earn the monies to travel, pay my shopping spree and great foods..Furthermore nowadays, I no longer care about others badmouthing me and ridicule me..Well, no one can understands my actions, reactions and me..so be it!
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Eventhough Singapore has speedy train service but I still preferred the bus..as busride always calm me down further..I just enjoy the chance to be seated all the way home..indeed a lazy bum me..🤣🤣🤣..that's just being me!
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However this time around, my unemployment days have been extremely UNPLEASANT as every single day I have to scream..shout..say aloud towards both of them..Whenever I started nagging him, my mom will always say,"What your late granny advised me.."..which I stopped her immediately as I am getting too sick and too exhausted having my mom backing him up..It annoys me further when my mom tries to so-called advise me bcoz to her CONSERVATIVE mind, I am always RUDE..which DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE?! Both of them are such a nuisance..irritates me with their "WHATEVER" characters. Sometimes I did imagine strangling them both..or tie them both to each other and put them in a dark room..just let them stay there and rot to death!😖😖😖#MyKillingMind
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People who do not need to go thru' similar situations like mine, would always coaxed me with words "Be patient"..Tell me, how to be patient if both of them always getting on my frustrated and furious nerves.."Be strong"..Tell me, how to be strong when every day I have to come face to face with the same pathetic attitudes and behaviours of them.."Only you can care for them.."..I ndeed I am already too sick and too tired of their presence in my life..#WhenWillTheseMiseriesEnd 😤😤😤
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Sometimes I just pray for them both to have an early death..well, it can't be called as an early death as both of them are old enough to die..Maybe with their death certificates I can have the sympathy of Housing and Development Board  (HDB in Singapore) in order to get my own flat..as I will definitely sell away this current house once they are DEAD!..🤣🤣🤣
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Sometimes too I don't understand why GOD is giving me a set of parents (who are such an annoyance) to be His "Test" to me..my BIGGEST ordeal in life..It is absolutely pathetic..really draining my energy..Why can't GOD gives me alot of monies..great fortunes..widest wealth to be the "Test"..???..Hmmm..🤔🤔🤔..Maybe, just maybe GOD knows I will definitely share my wealth with the needy..as I love to donate..🤣🤣🤣
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Indeed I hope this sufferings and miseries of caregiving towards my parents will end soon. I just do not want to commit suicide or commit murder..that's all!
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#WhenYourParentsAreANuisance
#LifeOfACaregiver
#DontWantToCommitMurder
#DontWantToCommitSuicide

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