A LITTLE REMINDER



Whenever I heard the song "I'll stand by you" by The Pretenders, I will always be brought back to that day where my world collapsed before my eyes..It was the turning point in my life..It is what made who I am right now..

Just knowing that I am NOT everyone's cup of tea or dash of vodka, I learnt to distance myself from other humans..

Back then, I was sad..nowhere to turn to..then he said,"Just let it out..Just tell me all. Don't be afraid. I am not going to love you less..eventhough your confession will hurt me..I will stand by you..I have been doing that all these years when you felt abandoned by your best friends who left you after getting married, right?"..
No matter how I always bully him..No matter how loud I screamed at him..Each time I said,"I hate you!" when I was pissed off with him..He always replied,"No need to tell the world..The world already knows that I love you no matter what you say"..🙄🙄🙄😡😡😡

People can say anything bad about him..but I don't care..bcoz he stood by me during that chaotic moments..he still stands by me until now..He is my enemy, best friend, king of hearts, lover, coach, boyfriend, sugardaddy and crime partner..He knows that I am not going to marry him (even if he can marry me) bcoz I am the Big Boss who rule my life and I don't need any men to dominate and dictate me..😍😍😍


This is the picture a month after that chaotic moments started. He dislikes looking at this picture. He commented that he can see my miseries and sufferings thru' my eyes..that hurts him..he feels that he had failed to protect me from getting my heart broken again! Neeeaaay! Not his mistake. I was the cheeky one going after a new love which I did not think would broke my heart..#ServeMeRight

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