THE NON-ANGELIC LIFE

Saw the article that there is an increase in suicide cases..for age range of 31-39 years old.. . Once it was said that if you are not successful..not rich..not well-known..not married..not achieving anything great by 40 years old, you will be forever unsuccessful, poor, unknown, unmarried and a great loser. . When I reached 40 years old, personally I felt more calm..eventhough I am not successful, not rich, not achieving greatness, not married, not known and not achieving anything great..bcoz I don't put age target on being the REAL me..the person who is not interested to impress anything except the reflection on the mirror..someone who care less what are others saying about me as only my words against my actions, not others! . I am not proud to confess that I have made 5th suicide attempt and failed.. . I am not embarrassed to claim that I am FAT with no intention to lose weight just to please others' eyes.. . I am not disheartened each time people ridicule me for being a job ...

Ini aku screenshot dari akaun seseorg LELAKI yg aku tengok hampir semua posting kondem perempuan! Aku tak pasti jika manusia yg melahirkan dia tu perempuan ataupon bukan! Of course ada yg komen samada mak dia pon perempuan..of course, mak dia perempuan jenis sempurna lah gitu.. . Aku? Aku tak komen bila lelaki dah buat statement camnie..jenis chauvinist! Bagi aku sejak dah banyak umur nie, aku selalu pesan pada diri - NEVER lower down myself to be at this kinda people; dorang patut naik ke level aku!  . Aku berhenti dating bagai..kerna aku malas nak hadap negativities from lelaki. Spare me! Aku ada banyak benda lain yg lebih berfaedah utk aku hadap..At this age, tolong jangan drag aku into this kinda negative situation. Aku hanya nak tenang je..Aku hanya nak bekerja, ada duit banyak, travel, shopping, sambung belajar, masak, kasi org makan, derma dan berniaga kecil-kecilan..insya ALLAH..hidup single sampai mati pon aki ok je..Takmo aaaah beradu siapa lagi hebat..Takmo a...

Takde rezeki to be sponsored in Preschool Teaching..😭😭😭#DramaJeAkuLebih..I am OK..jika bahasa Melayu aku TAK LAKU..jika bangsa MELAYU aku tak melayakkan aku utk kemudahan dan keHEBATan negeri serba mahal ini, toloooooong ya ALLAH pindahkan aku ke negeri jauh dan tempat jauh yg dapat menerima aku dan MELAYU aku..#DistinctionInEnglishIsMeaningless #MelayuAkuSegarDiHati chill aaaah mat saleh pon reti cakap dlm bahasa Melayu..tak perlu lah aku nak fefeeling "Saya kurang fasih berbahasa Melayu" ..Aku bangga boleh berbahasa Melayu walaupon bahasa ayahanda Arab dan bahasa ibunda adalah Bahasa Indonesia..🤣🤣🤣#RezekiALLAHsangatLuuuaaaas Don't give up! . Kalo TAKDE yg melatih aku, camner aku nak mahir akan sesuatu bidang..tak camtu?🤔🤔🤔..#LANTAKdorangLah yg penting aku dah kasi support pada rancangan dorang.. . Admin pon tak lepas pasal aku hanya berbahasa Inggeris dan Melayu, apalagi jawatan mengajar..Lembeeeet leeeerrr.. . #BuktiAkuCariPeluangKerja #CariPeluangTingk...